Today marks 30 days of writing in my gratitude journal. I’ve never been able to finish a whole month before, so this day is special to me. So I thought I’d share some of my pages with you ❤ ! As you will see I don’t really limit myself in any way of how I’m supposed to write the things I am grateful for. I just kind of go with how I feel in that moment:
I touched on some of the effects of focusing on this practice in the last post “Self Care”, but I thought I’d elaborate on it more in this post.
I’ve been witnessing myself thinking about things that I am grateful for as they arise throughout the day.
I’ve been telling friends and loved ones how much I am truly grateful to have them in my life.
I’ve noticed I feel, hear and see the gratitude’s that people have of myself and they are so much easier to accept.
Life just seems fuller and more true, if that makes any sense…
This experience has been quite profound for me, and I’m glad I take the time each day and night to write 5 things that I am grateful for. I think I’ll continue it another month 😉 . Oh! And I’ve even started seeing hearts in nature again. ❤ I’ll leave you with this last picture and then see you again next week! ❤ (((Hugs)))!
A couple of months ago I mysteriously disappeared from the blog without warning. The day after my last post I had lost all control of myself and where I was going. I needed a break, one that would force me to slow down completely, change aspects inside and out that weren’t working, and to rebuild the way I talked to myself. After 3 months, I finally feel like myself again and I am grateful I’ve done the work to get here. The majority of tools that I’ve used were from my psychologist and from self exploration of TEDx talks on YouTube. If life ever gets you down in the future, I hope these daily tasks can help you as much as they have me. ❤
This past month I’ve paid more attention to my own self care. I colored and designed the gratitude book above to write in every day and have kept it up since November 6th. I like to write about the things I’m grateful for with colorful gel pens, my inner child likes it that way and the more colors mixed in the better, lol. I even get creative and draw pictures or doodle in spots. I write 5 things I am grateful for before bed and in the morning.
This daily practice has ignited spontaneous gratitudes throughout the day, which is a pretty interesting shift. If I forget to write the extra ones down, I remind myself that I said them earlier in the day and that is okay too. I’ve heard of the positive effects of writing down gratitude’s before, but now I whole heartedly understand it’s benefits.
Morning Pick Me Ups
I have this saying taped to the first lamp I turn on each morning. Instead of “It’s gonna be a great day,” I edited BJ Fogg’s Maui Habit to better suite my personality by saying wonderful. I even throw my arms up in the air with enthusiasm! This has had a good effect on how I wake up for work each day, lol. Not gonna lie, some days just don’t turn out, but I have noticed a change in my waking up routine being more positive. Which I still see as a gain 😉 .
***Written with a dry erase marker***
This talk really inspired me 🙂 ❤ . I find myself saying this phrase whenever I feel self conscious about myself throughout the day and I say it in a way like I’d talk to a child (with excitement and a high pitched voice, lol).
YOU ARE ENOUGH
This is also written on my mirror with a dry erase marker. I got this idea of reminding myself “I am enough” from Marisa Peer’s talk. Over the years I’ve struggled with the thought of not being enough, having enough, or living enough, so this one really hit home for me. I haven’t added a daily reminder to my phone yet, but plan to try it out this week 🙂 .
Knowing Your Wants and Needs
I didn’t know what I wanted or what my needs were when I was lost in my stresses a few months back, but when I stopped and really thought about what was important to me, they started to emerge. One other Mirror reminder that I say to myself is to honor my own self love and care so I made it personal. I break down my needs of massages, exercise, and creative outlets into a more playful phrase:
“I need touch, movement, attention, and play from myself. These are my needs and I intend to seduce myself with them.”
Lol. I got the seduce myself part from a different talk, that I can’t seem to find but, it felt right because it sounds more interesting to fall in love with yourself through seduction. I’m consciously enticing myself to be more attentive to my needs and accomplishing them. I have briefly loved myself before but it was kind of an ego approach of wanting to “Be good.” I want to create such a strong and solid foundation so that the next time I build a glass castle, I will still remember a love for myself that is concrete and constant.
“Setting the Heart Free”
Loving Myself So I Can Love The World
I no longer wish to give my heart and self love away to others, instead I am creating a love so strong in myself that it overflows my own needs and helps heal others, even the world. It may be a tall order, but lately I feel anything is possible as long as I stay true to who I really am. ❤ (((HUGS))) Thank you for listening my friends, I am ever so grateful of you. See you next Thursday! You Are Enough 😉 !
After a tough day at work, I took Odin for a good two hour walk. The pink wild flowers caught my attention throughout our venture. We stopped under the tree in the bottom corner for awhile to catch some shade and a cool breeze. Shortly after, we spotted a monarch butterfly flying near the tree tops. I asked out loud “may I take your picture?” And a few moments later, it agreed 😊💞. I’m glad I took this walk today, it always amazes me how much a walk in nature can cleanse the heart and mind. ❤
Whenever I feel like bursting from seams from “what am I doing and where do I go next,” I always find myself at the base of an old tree. As if to seek guidance from a grandparent far older than my own, I sit and contemplate about life. The reason for it all and the direction of where its going.
For some reason these giant plants calm me down, slow my wild thoughts and remind me to take things slow.
“Be at ease, let the wind through my leaves help you breathe. Everything’s going to be okay.”
I almost didn’t post today. Its was a hard day at work and the gloominess of the day made me want to sleep it away. But something in me desperately needed to clear my heart and soul. Then, a thought of my favorite nearby tree came to mind. So I took off my shoes and walked to my release.
I have been coming to this tree ever since I moved here. In fact, any place I have moved to I have found a special tree to share my thoughts about life with. These gentle beings are the best listeners. After about an hour of inner rambling I finally felt like I could breathe again. I still don’t know what step to take in my life, but at least now I feel like myself again. ❤
I am so grateful to have been able to live near nature all my life. I honestly don’t know what I’d do without someplace to go in nature. It has been my greatest mentor and therapist. 👣🍃💞
Today I wanted to write a post about my relationship with art and a few of the happy shifts that I’ve started. Recently I confronted a part of myself that hinders my art and working towards refining my skills. This part likes to bully my artistic self. In the book “the Artists Way” Julia calls it her Censor, and mine always brings up the thoughts: “I can’t create art if I don’t have enough money, I can’t make money off of Art, or at least not enough to make a living.”
This type of thinking has always crippled me from doing most of the creative ideas that I have or I want do. “Because, why put energy into something that won’t give a good enough return back….but if I just had enough money I could do my art…”. Something deep down within me wishes that I would stop believing in these old and damaging lies.
So, a few days ago I decided to try and change. I got into my one of my art journals and started to write. The picture above was pretty in my book but I really wanted to emphasize the feeling of the phrase so I got even more creative and popped it into PicsArt ^_^.
I stumbled upon an interesting thought in the one below and played around with the thought of the word art being in heart.
After writing out affirmations, I also wanted to change my thoughts about art not creating prosperity. I went through a record book and added up all the art pieces that family, friends, and strangers have bought over the years and realized I have made more than I previously thought. Not necessarily enough to pay monthly bills but, if I really put forth effort to develop the forms I love most, it doesn’t seem as far away now. The last thing I wrote in my art journal is what sparked the idea of writing this post. “My heart defines my art.” If I continue to look at art in a better light, the future could be endless…. and this thought is enough for me to make my next push back into myself 😉 .